I miss you, mum.

I was in "surviving a crisis" course today and You'll never walk alone was mentioned (the lyrics were on the board) and I just felt emotional.

I miss you. I want to talk to you and hold your hand and give you a hug. I really could do with a hug.

I feel lost again. I feel like if I don't get this job then I don't know where I am going to go from there. I don't feel needed and I want to feel needed.

I'm not needed as a volunteer, not really. I feel that I can't talk when there's a lot of loud people in the room and I feel lonely. 

You needed me and I just feel like I am not needed. You were my purpose and I'm not sure what that is anymore.

I told you that I was feeling blah now.

I know that you are with me but it's not the same as you physically being here. I just want to feel connected to someone.

I know I will be okay. I just miss you and wanted to talk to you.

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