I survived Christmas day alone.

It actually went better than I thought it would.

I started it with watching"Casablanca", while opening my gifts. 

I then turned over to watch "white Christmas". I would have watched "Meet me in St Louis" but I felt "White Christmas" is a more 'christmas' day film. 

Then when that finished, I watched a bit of "carry on Loving", while making my dinner and then I watched "Carry on Doctor" (eating my dinner, watching that.)

And then I watched a bit of "independence day" (I have the dvd, and seen it about 200 times, so it didn't matter that I missed some of it) and then I watched the snow baby thing on channel 4. I enjoyed it.

And then it was the celebrity bake off (with the cast of it's a sin) and now watching Gogglebox.

It's been a curl up on the sofa with TV day but it didn't matter. I was alone on Christmas day, and I managed and had a good day.

Next year I will (hopefully) not be alone and I am going to start my own traditions (this year was still in me and my mum mode, as we used to watch old films together) but I am glad I did today.

It was something I needed to do, both as a grieving thing and also knowing that it's another thing I can do. 

And another thing my mum would be proud of me for.

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