Got my mum's death certificate today.

Yeah, it's not every day that you get your mum's death certificate through the post.

That happened to me today.

It kind of makes it all feel real now. Like, all I really had was a "helping you cope with grief" booklet from the hospital (that hasn't been updated during the pandemic) so kind of seeing her death certificate is that moment when I thought "yeah, this is really happening".

It's an odd feeling and I don't know how I am really feeling. It's weird.

At least the positive thing is now I can make sure that I get everything sorted for her funeral.

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