Feeling happier again.

I know what is going on with my mum's death certificate/ registering her death.

It's an inquest on Friday and then it's (hopefully) going on from there. I think it's all ok.

Going to plan my mum's funeral in an hour, so yeah, it's all...good isn't really the right word but ok. That's the word.

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