A girl from the coast

Dear Mam, It's a year tomorrow since I lost you and its been a strange year. It's seems so quick but also so slow at the same time. I'm doing good. I found kind mind and that's just changed my life. I'm attending courses and drop ins and I'm volunteering. I want to work in mental health and I just hope that you are proud of me. I think you would be. I'm not sure what I am doing tomorrow. I was going to go to "home" but it's got to rain and I don't think I wanna walk around in the rain.  I know I am taking the day out to just reflect and I know that I am having a self care day. I love you.  I miss you but you are with me in everything I do.  I love you. Dawn xx

Dawn,  I know that you are struggling at the moment and I know that it's hard to believe but you are great. You don't want to be anyone else. You don't have to be anyone else. You are great as you are. You know that you are great and people do like you. I know that you think that you are not enough and that other people are more amazing than you, but that's not true. You are amazing. Love, Dawn x

Do you ever think that there are situations when you think things couldn't get worse and then they do? That's how I feel about the conservative party leadership contest. If you thought Boris Johnson was scraping the barrel, the "contenders" have scraped through it. How did it get this bad? I know the Tories have always been Tories but I'm sure they used to have a few decent people as MPs. Where are they? Have they been sacked for not being heartless enough?  At this point, I would take Theresa May back as prime minister any day. He'll, I'd even take Larry the cat as the PM. We've had Boris. We are going to get equally bad.

Dear.... I don't know what to call you. Dad is so... personal for someone that barely knew you and yet, Calling you by your name feels unnatural too. I've been thinking about you a lot recently. I know that you are not alive anymore to actually find you and say this to you so this letter is my way of talking to you. I have always believed that I must be a bad person because of you. I have never heard a good word about you, not even from George and Ian. They just told me that the best thing that you ever did was leave me alone. And they were your friends. I spent so long wondering what I had done to make you leave me. Why didn't you even tell mum and me that you were going to Germany?  I thought that it was my fault. I was bullied at school and that and you leaving had a really negative effect on me. And then there's the whole prison thing and a half -brothet that I might have and I just felt that I was a "bad' person because of you. I'm 40 and I've neve...

I've noticed over the last few years (pandemic aside) that more schools are having prom's. I know that  in America it's been a done thing for years. I know that from watching Buffy and The OC (and I'm certain one tree hill featured a prom, but I could be wrong. And I think Dawson's creek, too) 😂 My American teen shows aside, I do know that it's a big thing in America with prom Queens and kings and pretty dresses. I just don't know when it became a "thing" over here. I'm not a parent, and I only have 1 friend that has a child old enough to have finished school (she had her son at 18) and he didn't have a prom (2018 leaver) but I have a best friend who has a step daughter, who didn't have a prom (2020 leaver. Pandemic) yet her oldest half-sister had her prom last night (her other half sister is 2 years younger)   And another friend of mine has two neices who both had proms (2019 and this year) so I can't really tell when it took off....

I love "Neighbours". I've watched it since I was about 5 and the fact that it's coming to an end is both annoying and sad. Seriously, how can Fremantle (who produces the show) just let it end? It's all about the money. I know channel 5/10/paramount etc..have their part to play in the show ending but I can't help but wonder why they: A) didn't tell RTE and other broadcasters that channel 5 had pulled out.  B) Didn't try to negotiate a better offer with channel 5 and 10. C) try to sell the show to potential buyers while the show was actually in production. Because of the actions of Fremantle and others, cast and crew lose their jobs in a month's time. It's sad because it's at its best at the minute. The one great thing out of this is I've met some great people on the social media platforms on the campaign and it's lovely when people come together and use social media for positive things.  And the next campaign has to be #bringbackneig...

The horror channel has started repeating "Farscape" at 6pm weeknights, and it's been a while since I watched it so thought I would watch an episode. And when I did I remembered just how much I loved it back in the day. It was a fun show and I remember loving John and Aerynn so much back in the day. I think when Claudia Black and Ben Browder joined the cast of "Stargate SG1", it just kind of ruined both shows for me. It was like they tried too hard to make it a "thing". I've re-watched Stargate SG-1 a few times, and I do tend to skip the last couple of seasons, and just watch the episodes I like in them. Anyway, back to Farscape and I've been enjoying watching it and feel my love for the show has been re-ignited. It was a great show.