Another day...

And another range of emotions.
I'm sleeping later, I think that might be my body telling me that I need the sleep. I didn't sleep much in the days leading up to my mum's death. I was worried I'd miss the call telling me that she had died. Luckily I didn't do that.

Or maybe it's my grief making me feel tired. I feel...angry today. Like I need to stand up for myself and it's me against the world. Another reaction of grief.

I've learned that when anyone says "I'm sorry for your loss" the only thing I can say is "Thank you". I don't know what else to say.

Still can't plan her funeral because I still don't have the death certificate yet, and I can't register her death. 

Today feels like the waiting game...I think that's why I feel angry/ frustrated. I can't do anything. Just wait, and I'm not very good at doing that.

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